Finally..

Damn I've been suffering 'cause my internet hasn't been working for days! Technology...argh.
Diet is going good, not great, but good. It's been hard at times, hard to be working and studying at the same time, but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. Good news is that I haven't passed out, not once. Great news are that I figured out the REAL reason for eating like crazy at times.
I've been having problems with some people and especially at work, and school is getting extremely stressing. On Saturday I was on an edge of a breakdown, I can't remember a day being as depressed and pissed at the same time as that. All I felt like doing was go and by an enormous bag of sweets and all kind of junk food and just EAT. I didn't, thanks to my sister, my keeper. But I was so close to. And when I stopped to think about it I realised that I've become a comfort eater.
So fucking unfair! Some start to exercise, or clean like crazy(which is also good exercise) like my mum, when they're sad or mad or whatever. But me, well, I eat. Feels like that's the only true comfort but I have no idea what has triggered it off 'cause I haven't been like this always. But hey, no time to mop around trying to think of reasons why. I'll make this my inspiration, time to stick with the healthy life.
Total weight loss today on the 11th day is 6,4kg

Madness, I tell you madness..

Just complete torture. This day has been awful! I woke up at 8 and was off to school. Had to survive till five at school just with a cup of coffee. My fist and only food I had at six, as in ten minutes ago. Wow, I've never felt as tired, lifeless and weak..was sure I'd pass out. Heads up, this will probably be the day you consider quiting, I was so close to. It's weird because I'm not hungry at all, I just feel extremely weak and tired. Many times I catch myself daydreaming, how I will after this, take the day off, bake the whole day and by every sweet that was ever made! After this I'm seriously going to try and find a cure for my endless craving of sweets.
I've lost 5kg now , and still hoping to drop a few during this diet.

Just another tuesday

It's all well and good. Still got 7 days to go, I'm gonna do this!
So, the great thing about this hospital diet is the fact that I don't feel hungry at all, just weak if I don't get food for hours. Today was the chicken day, and ooh how I looove chicken!
What I've realised during this craziness is that at most times I'm not even hungry but when I start eating it's the good taste that just makes me want to eat more. I've been wondering what could be the cause of that and what I actually found out was that sugar or more specifically carbohydrate is the one to be blamed. A person's sugar level should be balanced at all times, when u digest something that will lift your blood sugar level in an instant, it will drop as fast as it rose and will drive you towards binge eating. That's what causes the constant hunger and urge for sweets. SUGAR=BAD!
But anyhow, got through today pretty well. Went to the movies to see Precious, oh, it really touched me! My mind wasn't wondering on food, was concentrating on the movie. So, I would say it was a pretty good movie then! Though, it was really odd being at theatre without any of the sweets and junk food. Was good actually. Felt very light and fresh afterwards.

A succer for sweets

It's the morning of the fourth day of my hospital diet. Everything is okay, except that my muscles are sore from yesterdays yoga. I'm feeling pain in places I didn't even know existed. No hunger and not feeling weak, so I'm not complaining. And the weight loss now is 4,6kg! The progress is looking good so far!

The actual problem now is that I have these cravings for candy. I just love those sugary colourful candies. Since from my early ages I've been eating candy regularly. You'd think that when you grow up your taste in food would develop, but noup, this is something that I doubt I'll never get rid of. I'll let you in if I find something healthy to replace the sweets. So far fruit an yogurt's have not done it for me..hoping to find a cure for this crazy craving!

Wow, yoga!

Just came back from yoga and I'm feeling amazing! What an experience. Yoga has been in my life before but years ago, so today I decided to go to a yoga intro, where we went through all the basics and positions step by step.

It all started from the breathing technique. By inhaling in the right way you can warm up your whole body while just sitting, it's called firebreathing. From there we went to the different kind of positions. It was so liberating; my mind was clear, I was feeling peaceful and I found so many "new" muscles from my body.

First I was a bit scared of not bending enough, but none of the stretches felt uncomfortable and I already felt an improvement in my body just during those two hours. This is something I'm really going to set my mind on.

It's amazing how beneficial yoga is for your body. What it does is actually fasten your metabolism and digestion, and make them work better and smoothly. It will also strenghten your inner muscles and make your posture so much better. And of course, all kind of stretching will tone the body.

During yoga you can't drink and it is recommended not to have ate at least for two hours before the session. Anything extra in your body will make you feel nauseous. If everything is done properly you will feel so light and good after it.

I think that yoga is something to be done weekly, it's so extremely beneficial!

A beautiful morning

It's now past ten, the morning of my third day on the diet. Couldn't feel better! I slept like a baby through the whole night. Surprisingly I'm not feeling hungry at all, and I'm wondering where all this energy is coming from. Since I'm feeling so good I decided to go to yoga, so in twenty minutes this girl is off to yoga for couple of hours and then going to treat myself by going to a tanning bed. The UV-radiation will give me so much more energy -I know I know, it ain't that healthy but it's not going to kill me tho.

My total weight loss is now 3,8kg. Just wonderful!

Awesome!

It's now 22.30pm and still on my second day of the hospital diet. Had my last meal (yogurt and ham) over three hours ago and I'm feeling great! I mean, I'm not hungry and I'm surprisingly energetic. I just came back from work and this day has been freaking awesome. Made some good sales and was able to stay focused and do my job properly. It ain't that bad, at all!